Recently I found out that a good friend of my mine was chosen to play for a music hero of mine.
On one hand I was really happy for him as we played together on several gigs before and I was fully aware that he is a good guitarist... he deserves it! Well done!
On the other, I was dissapointed and went to sulk-mode. I needed to. I needed to know why. What have I done badly? What could I have done better?
So I seek answers... and I've gotten some. Not all things in life are pleasant :) but in this case, they are certainly necessary.
The comments on my playing in a nutshell is that I don't play the right thing at the right time. Sometimes I go out of timing and make things 'messy'....
While that is a problem I can deal with on its own, but as I dig deeper myself, I realised that this issue permeates across my life:-
- to say the right things and do the right stuff with the right people at the right time!
(that's saying, doing, people and time)
worst, I don't do it! or want to do it. I think innately I don't even try! Arrgghhh... It's shameful to admit this. I would love to think that I get the saying and doing part right more than 50% of the time but even then, I think I get the people and timing part wrong most of the time.
At the moment, I don't know the consequence of my actions (or inactions). On major aspect I feel is the lost of 'gravitas' or 'leadership'. I'm not sure...
I'm praying and learning now... from zero. Will update.
Friday, June 16, 2006
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Pyromaniac? Sadist?... I love animals what!
Coolcat asked me to comment on this entry. and I will :)
I don't think I'm a pyro-phobic. I'm not a pyromaniac too but I do enjoy burning things up occasionally.
I have tried to burn my hair when I was younger. Nothing too scary. It burns fast. then dies.
I haven't burn things for a long time until last month when I found snails in my aquarium - EATING my PLANTS!
How can man?! My lovely plants!
So I bought pufferfish that would eat them. And since they were about to die anyway I thought to have some fun with them. I caught one of the snails and put it on a piece of paper and lit it up. 1 min later, the fire engulf the snail and then.. **** blooop ****. A faint explosion signifying the end of miserable snail's life. muahahahaha! The snail's shell exploded into a thousand fragments. It was fun I guess, but too short lived...
If you have garden snails, you can put salt on the snail and see it melt (but this won't work on aquarium snails) which is certainly more fun to watch as it last like 30mins.... I'm sick I know.
Speaking of which, ants and mosquitos last a LONG time without their limbs....
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Music & Kings
I went to Jakarta last week on a business trip.
Met this funny-wise man. We are both passionate about our music and that made for much conversation topics. Knowing my busy schedules he told me not to leave my music behind and added:
David became musician 1st then king... not the other way around... remember that!
....
....
now who am I to argue with that?!
Met this funny-wise man. We are both passionate about our music and that made for much conversation topics. Knowing my busy schedules he told me not to leave my music behind and added:
David became musician 1st then king... not the other way around... remember that!
....
....
now who am I to argue with that?!
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Maggie Mee
Last night I was pooped out from my days work.
So we went to watch ice age 2. It was okay-la....
But what was even better when Liping made Asam Laksa Maggie for me. She makes the best maggie! I'm very biased. :)
So we went to watch ice age 2. It was okay-la....
But what was even better when Liping made Asam Laksa Maggie for me. She makes the best maggie! I'm very biased. :)
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
some updates:
Hey there,
I'm doing well. Thanks for asking! How are things with you? Anything new? What are you busy with these days and what are you looking forward to?
Suddenly, I feel like typing.. so here goes! lol
Besides being busy with wedding plans and the biz, there is little time for music practice. I feel that I've been deproving for the past few months after the busy period of December. All those motor skills gone!
I've got a gig this weekend for CCM with Liang and Jac and I find myself practicing with my old friend- the metronome. Shucks. I'm planning to keep it simple and tight. But I hope I practice on a more regular basis, I feel very discourage when I don't improve... or maybe playing the same lines over and over and over again bores the heck of of me, or maybe I feel that stagnation of skills isn't worshiping Him (in eph, it says play with all your skills!). One thing still stays the same, playing music make me happy. It's weird. I'm weird.
In this year, I hope I'll be able to train up my ears a bit more. Learn more transcription skills. I'm a hopeless case in that! Oh btw, I've been experimenting on the minor harmonic scale. Sounds awesome.. hehehe.. if only I can get my fingers to move now...
On other stuff, it's pretty exciting. I have no experience in getting married so.... :P You dating anyone? You're not young anymore too!
On work, super stressful. But I love it... and love is not a 'feeling' word, it's an action word! ahahaha.. I'm getting so much white hair these days. Recently, I'm in the mission to tell those I see who don't enjoy their work to realised that we spent the majority of our waking hours in work. "Church" happens more in our office more than in 'ministry'.
As for cars.... arrggh I was eying the Honda City! hahaha sleek, not too expensive rm70k+ and very good on fuel consumption. So what do I do? I try to make some money and pray! But God seems to be saying no! arrgh. I'll keep praying. For now, it's the kancil and the bug. Have you got your Satria yet?
Okay you take care now.
Eric
I'm doing well. Thanks for asking! How are things with you? Anything new? What are you busy with these days and what are you looking forward to?
Suddenly, I feel like typing.. so here goes! lol
Besides being busy with wedding plans and the biz, there is little time for music practice. I feel that I've been deproving for the past few months after the busy period of December. All those motor skills gone!
I've got a gig this weekend for CCM with Liang and Jac and I find myself practicing with my old friend- the metronome. Shucks. I'm planning to keep it simple and tight. But I hope I practice on a more regular basis, I feel very discourage when I don't improve... or maybe playing the same lines over and over and over again bores the heck of of me, or maybe I feel that stagnation of skills isn't worshiping Him (in eph, it says play with all your skills!). One thing still stays the same, playing music make me happy. It's weird. I'm weird.
In this year, I hope I'll be able to train up my ears a bit more. Learn more transcription skills. I'm a hopeless case in that! Oh btw, I've been experimenting on the minor harmonic scale. Sounds awesome.. hehehe.. if only I can get my fingers to move now...
On other stuff, it's pretty exciting. I have no experience in getting married so.... :P You dating anyone? You're not young anymore too!
On work, super stressful. But I love it... and love is not a 'feeling' word, it's an action word! ahahaha.. I'm getting so much white hair these days. Recently, I'm in the mission to tell those I see who don't enjoy their work to realised that we spent the majority of our waking hours in work. "Church" happens more in our office more than in 'ministry'.
As for cars.... arrggh I was eying the Honda City! hahaha sleek, not too expensive rm70k+ and very good on fuel consumption. So what do I do? I try to make some money and pray! But God seems to be saying no! arrgh. I'll keep praying. For now, it's the kancil and the bug. Have you got your Satria yet?
Okay you take care now.
Eric
Monday, March 27, 2006
Problems organising camps?
Hi there,
Organising a camp can sometimes be tough. Small meager budgets, demanding campers, high expectations for food and 'quality' tshirts. Satisfying all needs is as much a pain as the organising itself!!
Allow Johnny to the rescue- vely fierceZZZ, Johnny do Bestz!
You can now zhng your camp
http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/2006/03/zhng_my_camp.html
Organising a camp can sometimes be tough. Small meager budgets, demanding campers, high expectations for food and 'quality' tshirts. Satisfying all needs is as much a pain as the organising itself!!
Allow Johnny to the rescue- vely fierceZZZ, Johnny do Bestz!
You can now zhng your camp
http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/2006/03/zhng_my_camp.html
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
We're gathered here today to remember...
... GIGS (of emails... 3 yrs worth)
bytes to bytes
gigs to gigs
we hereby say our farewell to the many gigs that has been lost in this terrible tragedy today
the words in the gigs has shown me that tho they are no more,
their meanings are still here to stay
their purpose we remember.
I will certainly miss you, Gigs of Email (son of Thunderbird)
bytes to bytes
gigs to gigs
we hereby say our farewell to the many gigs that has been lost in this terrible tragedy today
the words in the gigs has shown me that tho they are no more,
their meanings are still here to stay
their purpose we remember.
I will certainly miss you, Gigs of Email (son of Thunderbird)
Thursday, February 09, 2006
***title here***
Just watched a Scott Henderson instructional video and then another - Tommy Emanualle.
Both monster players makes me wanna quit playing right now!
On the same time, both are simply inspiring... for me to just play and worship.
For music is a gift to worship without words.
Both monster players makes me wanna quit playing right now!
On the same time, both are simply inspiring... for me to just play and worship.
For music is a gift to worship without words.
Friday, January 20, 2006
How weird am I?
| You Are 40% Weird |
 Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it! |
| Your Observation Skills Get A B- |
 Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time) And it takes something big to distract you! |
Work break musings....
Thanks guys for commenting on the last entry.
1/12 of 2006 is almost over! Wow that's fast! I hardly feel time 'moved' and 1 month's over. It's a good reminder that we need to use time wisely- doing things that will give us the best returns.
I think using time is like investments. What's the ROI? What's the return? Short term or long term? What can we do that no one else around us can do better? Why the heck am I not thinking more in terms of this lines.
When I start to think in terms of this, I realised my life is much simpler. There's just that few things I need to do and it helps me prioritise. Makes my life simpler. For those things I need to do, I'd gotta be responsible for them.
Problems come when I stop to think. I do things for the sake of doing it. Sounds simple? Yet so difficult. After doing some things for like the 100th times, I forget the 'why'. I go on an auto-cruise mode - without much goal or objective - simply because I have to.
Being in auto-cruise mode is easy. I just go with the system. It 'feels' that my life is safe and secure -- which is plain stupidity! Because I was merely wasting my time doing things for the sake of doing it and adding no value to me and to the ppl around me. (since I'm hitting 30 soon... time has a new meaning)
Having asked myself many brutally honest questions, Im glad I've made some changes in my life this year already. The changes are not easy and its impact to be measured at the end of the year.
*****
What's a good/great Christian?
Thanks ppl for your comments! They are awesome. While I also dunno the answer....
but a christian is firstly a follower of Christ- a lover, a friend, a servant...etc In the whole equation, relationship is key. What's a good christian to me? one that has good relationship with God. What's a great Christian? One that has a great relationship with God. Tada! :))
*****
In the early part of the year I was also thinking: if I'm not doing any 'churchy' stuff, what do i do that defines me as a Christian? :)
*****
Early this week a very close friend gave me a line which stuck to me:
The spirit of excellence has nothing to do with being perfect.
1/12 of 2006 is almost over! Wow that's fast! I hardly feel time 'moved' and 1 month's over. It's a good reminder that we need to use time wisely- doing things that will give us the best returns.
I think using time is like investments. What's the ROI? What's the return? Short term or long term? What can we do that no one else around us can do better? Why the heck am I not thinking more in terms of this lines.
When I start to think in terms of this, I realised my life is much simpler. There's just that few things I need to do and it helps me prioritise. Makes my life simpler. For those things I need to do, I'd gotta be responsible for them.
Problems come when I stop to think. I do things for the sake of doing it. Sounds simple? Yet so difficult. After doing some things for like the 100th times, I forget the 'why'. I go on an auto-cruise mode - without much goal or objective - simply because I have to.
Being in auto-cruise mode is easy. I just go with the system. It 'feels' that my life is safe and secure -- which is plain stupidity! Because I was merely wasting my time doing things for the sake of doing it and adding no value to me and to the ppl around me. (since I'm hitting 30 soon... time has a new meaning)
Having asked myself many brutally honest questions, Im glad I've made some changes in my life this year already. The changes are not easy and its impact to be measured at the end of the year.
*****
What's a good/great Christian?
Thanks ppl for your comments! They are awesome. While I also dunno the answer....
but a christian is firstly a follower of Christ- a lover, a friend, a servant...etc In the whole equation, relationship is key. What's a good christian to me? one that has good relationship with God. What's a great Christian? One that has a great relationship with God. Tada! :))
*****
In the early part of the year I was also thinking: if I'm not doing any 'churchy' stuff, what do i do that defines me as a Christian? :)
*****
Early this week a very close friend gave me a line which stuck to me:
The spirit of excellence has nothing to do with being perfect.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Good to Great
I have been pondering what is a good christian?
We go to church, pray, do our quiet time. We lend a helpling hand. We study the word of God. I guess we are.
What will make us great christian? or better written as great followers of christ?
Share your views.
***
Martha's a good follower but, paraphrasing our Lord, "Dont' stop Mary, she has chosen the better..."
***
We go to church, pray, do our quiet time. We lend a helpling hand. We study the word of God. I guess we are.
What will make us great christian? or better written as great followers of christ?
Share your views.
***
Martha's a good follower but, paraphrasing our Lord, "Dont' stop Mary, she has chosen the better..."
***
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
A friend
Johann says:
the metronome is your friend
Johann says:
:)
eric - says:
and my worst enemy!
Johann says:
it is the cruellest of critics
Johann says:
the harshest of teachers
Johann says:
and your most faithful friend
Johann says:
if you want someone to be honest with you about your playing... ask a metronome
Johann says:
lol
the metronome is your friend
Johann says:
:)
eric - says:
and my worst enemy!
Johann says:
it is the cruellest of critics
Johann says:
the harshest of teachers
Johann says:
and your most faithful friend
Johann says:
if you want someone to be honest with you about your playing... ask a metronome
Johann says:
lol
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